Preparing to become childlike...

As I near the end of this journey I feel less and less like I am preparing to become a mother and more and more like I am preparing to become childlike.

As Mike Mason says, "Being childlike involves mastering the art, not just of remembering, but of keeping the past so fresh it seems to be one with the present. Children have no past. For them there are no "good old days"; there are only good new days. When things have always been this way there is nothing to which to compare the present. There is no past, there is only now. And 'now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation'" (2 Corinthians 6:2) 

I long to see this world for the first time, through her fresh eyes. Again, Mason says, "A baby is fallen and sinful, but she is also more innocent than her parents. Isn't this because babies have been with God more recently than we have? They have just come from beholding his face."Ah, what a glorious thought!

Oh, this is what I desire. To be taught by my daughter. To see her experience the beauty of this world for the first time, again and again with such delight, and yet to know so much more than I.

As we get closer and tasks are getting accomplished, I find myself caring less and less about the "things" to be done and more and more about preparing my heart for her.

So, yes, there will hopefully be a post this week with nursery updates, because it is truly transforming into a joyful yet peaceful sanctuary, and I want you to be able to share in our excitement! Our pastor once said that, "Joy is Peace Dancing & Peace is Joy Resting". This is exactly the type of room we have sought to create, and by the Lord's grace it is coming together.

I am feeling wonderful. Beatrice is growing and growing and I couldn't be more grateful. Her body is almost completely distinguishable from the outside, which is thrilling and comical at the same time.

I told someone today that I am so curious to know her story, or at least it's beginning. The preparations are almost complete, and so now my darling girl, it's up to you. We can't wait to meet you and watch as the Lord writes the story of your life.

My Beatrice, we continue to pray that you will always be sensitive to the Holy Spirit and that you will hear his voice. That you will be confident in the Lord's calling and that you will truly bring joy to all you meet.

I also hope to do one post on our beautiful trip to New York several weeks ago. But here is one photo Adam took for her nursery while we were there...